So, I decided to start a blog. “Why?” you ask. That’s a good
question. I can answer it with two main reasons: negativity and developing a
craft.
Now before you leave my blog without reading another word,
hear me out. I am trying to combat the constant negativity I’ve found in my
head lately. You see, I live in northwest Florida because of my man’s military
career. This has displaced me from the city I called home (Philly), my very
best friends, and my family. Also, I’m nearing the end of graduate school,
stressing about completing my program and, frankly, dismal career opportunities
after graduation. On top of all of this,
I am a northern girl, born and bred, and I just do not fit in down here. I
cannot stand the constant heat and humidity, I miss having four seasons, I miss
living in a city, I miss my friends, I’m sick of being underemployed…the list
goes on. Thus, the major sources of negativity in my life that I finally
decided to work toward replacing with positive thoughts.
My second reason for starting a blog is to further develop
my writing and creativity. One of my life goals/dreams is to become a published
author. I’ve never told anyone that before (except the hubs, of course). I
think it is because I’m afraid that my writing will be subpar, that no one
would be interested in my ideas – basically, I’m afraid that I will fail. But I
have all of these ideas in my head that I want to put onto paper and develop
more. It’s a tug-of-war between my fears and my aspirations. But lately I’ve
been hearing the phrase “dreams don’t work unless you do” playing in my mind,
on repeat. So, I spent a few days
thinking about how to work on my writing skills, find my voice, and nourish my
creativity, and I decided on a blog.
My goal for this blog is to help others who are struggling
with negativity in their lives. I truly believe that one can find at least one amazing or excellent or beautiful or
inspiring thing in every single day…if only one looks.
So, I am promising myself and my readers, that from here on
out, I am looking. I am looking for that gleaming eye of a child who sees a
balloon floating off into the clouds and wonders where it’s going. I am looking
for that delightful flower growing in an unlikely place that puts you in awe of
nature. I am looking for that perfect cup of coffee that makes getting out of
bed in the morning just a little more pleasant. I am looking for the joy and
elation in the faces of loved ones as they are reunited. I am looking for the
little details hiding in the bookcases and on the walls that make your house a
home. I am looking for that magical feeling that comes when a certain December
holiday rolls around. I am looking for the little things, the simple things,
which are brilliant, magnificent, and inspiring – these are the things that make our lives sparkle and our nights
twinkle.
